Hey dears <3
This is going to be one of my rambling posts again. I might as well turn this into a normal blog lol I post so little about Ana and Ana issues these days because I'm always so busy! :( I'm so sorry!
Anyway,
My section is so full of screw-ups that we must be the most screwed up eupho section ever, seriously. Section leader T is a loner who always skips practice well hard to explain but basically he's one messed up dude. Music is J's life... And he's also terrified of pedophiles. >_> The other guy D is in the exco and likes bashing policies. And then there's me lol. I have no idea how V stands the lot of us!
You know how I've been intimidated by my section mate J for AGES because I thought he disliked me because of my lousy playing. Now I thought this, because he didn't speak to me outside of band. But that was because he thought I disliked him for nitpicking my playing, because I didn't talk to him outside band. Because I thought he didn't like me! Like, my other section mate V must have been majorly face-palming at J and I for the past few weeks because we both thought the other disliked us! Like seriously I don't even!
Anyway, the awkwardness quotient just exploded on Friday because J and I just happened to pass each other in the corridors twice, and neither of us said hi because we were both afraid the other would ignore us. -_- so like ~awkwardly ignores~ then he didn't appear on Saturday and I'm a little scared that it's because he felt upset at being ignored & couldn't face me? Because that's what happened with me just a couple weeks back. But I guess I'm being too presumptuous to think someone would be so affected by my ignoring :( I am going to have to clear this up today and I am so so nervous! OMG I am so awkward T_T
Well anyway, I fell in the band room on Sat morning and hurt myself :/ the wound kinda got infected so I am at the doctor now. And I am getting jitters for no reason. I think it's about being somewhere other than school during school hours. Like, seriously I am shaking... Ugh. Mondays have a pretty bad track record as far as Ana and my other mental/emotional crap goes. ;_;
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