More Stuff

Wooh I love it when it rains in the morning and it's nice and cool the whole day :) (Well I hope so anyway). Just cheated on my diet plan erk and ate an entire dried mango ._. What's with me and mango. Oh well at least it's not What's with me and cake. Because I discovered that mango is a good cake-craving substitute. :D Haha I was at Clementi mall the other day and craving cake, so I went downstairs to stare at cake (Yeah I came THAT close to bingeing ><) when I saw a fruit stall and I went YES SAVE ME PLEASE and bought some mango :D

I've reached a decision: I'm leaving for New York on the 24th, and I'm scared of the cold :S I've already been feeling it here in Singapore and the temperature is OH COME ON 26 DEGREES :( That's the one thing I don't completely love about the Ana lifestyle. Even though it helps so much with my depression. So I'll starve this week, and starting from next week with the sleep-over and the school dinner and all, I'll eat normally and stuff so that I'll gain back a bit of weight and hopefully not feel the chill as much. My mum's noticed, I think. Yesterday she hugged me and went omg your hands are so cold YOUR BODY IS SO COLD WHY ARE YOU SO COLD and I just kind of pooh-poohed it and said that I'm always rather cold (thalassemia, you see. Gives me a lower body temp. Around 36 degrees, almost an entire degree lower than most other people.) but she gave me this queer look.

Anyway it's going to be nigh impossible to hide the fact that I am not eating from like, 3 overly-concerned adults with no sense of privacy (cultural reasons. Quite understandable actually.) so yeah. No other option about it I guess? :P What I'm more worried about is actually the cold. Oh well. Will post about that when I get there and hopefully :P it won't be too cold until I've got a layer of insulation haha :P Eek I feel so bad. Gotta look at it from a scientific point of view I guess.

In any case I hope there will be a heavy snowfall of sorts when I'm there, so that I can help shovel snow (burns cals like HELL [omg haha irony xD] and keeps me warm too. I never realised what warm work shovelling snow was until we got stuck in 5-foot drifts two Christmases ago. (Remember the Christmas Blizzard anyone? :D) and my family enjoys hiking and the like activities so I guess it won't be too bad.

And I love the people on the forum. <3

Lindariel :)

P/S: OMG YESSS I just weighed in. 38.5kg :D I had rather been dreading weighing in because I haven't really been doing anything much for the past few days, just sitting around and being addicted to the forum lol xD Ok now I am going to clear up my corner of the flat, holy mess it has become :D And I shouldn't become too complacent or I'll end up rewarding myself with food x_x oh gosh it's so dumb.