Well the title says it all, huh? I was meant to fast today but I caved and ate yogurt and a bit of ice cream. D: Why. And I couldn't even drag myself out of the house to practice double bass omg it's such a bad day today. :( At least I'm not eating dinner. I flipped out at my mum because... Ok it's a long story. Here goes.
I studied today, not a lot, it was interspersed with much slacking. But I still finished my bio tutorial and an Econs essay. Not an awful lot, but still something. So the house is an unholy mess. So my mum comes home and bugs me to clear it, when I'm almost done with Econs. So I say, wait. You know how I HATE it when someone interrupts me (oh right you don't ok now you do xP) I think it's just part of my ED and depression and anxiety but anyway. So i clear a bit. Then as I'm off for Math tuition, she starts bitching about how if she moves my things I complain. Now let me make this clear, I HATE that too. Never can find anything afterward. So I flip. I just couldn't help it! I know it was wrong, and that the house DID need a clearing, but... ! ;_; The very idea of anyone moving my stuff just drives me absolutely nuts.
So now I'm sitting downstairs listening to Eric Satie's Sonatas and gymnopedies and trying to calm down ;_;
On another note, *I just found out my band director is gay omfg halp halp whut do I do now* ok not like I'm a homophobe or anything, I'm totally ok with LGBT but this is the first time I'm actually interacting with someone who's openly homosexual and I'm terrified that its going to colour my interactions with him omg it would be so mean but gah I just can't stop thinking about it :P Ew I feel so bad about myself now xP
Haha ok I should really stop freaking at everything but somehow I just can't help it ugh I'm despicable, honestly!
<3,
Lindariel :)
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