My Very First Post!

Hello darlings!

Since this is my very first blog post, I guess it should start with some introduction, no?

Well then, I am Lindariel, I live in Singapore and I am Ana. I'm just a newbie; I came across the entire thinspo idea earlier this year... around June, if I'm not wrong. I'm pro-Ana, strongly pro-Ana, *because the idea of Mia and purging scares me*. Yes, I know, I'm a wimp, and the biggest wimp the world has known at that. 

To most people I'm just a good Christian girl, law-abiding, bookish, study hard... Most of why I am going Ana is that I want to prove them all wrong, that just because I'm good and I don't like getting into trouble does not mean I don't have my opinions, feelings and they can control me. Along those lines, I don't do laxatives, drugs, smoke or drink (where could I find them, anyway? Singapore requires above eighteen plus i/c for most drug purchases anyway, and as I said I'm a good law-abiding girl and those could possibly ruin my life more than I want to :P)

I'm sixteen, the Singaporean equivalent of high school sophomore (going on to junior once next year starts) and a self-professed nerd with few friends. I find it easier to skip meals during school term, because (as it is with Asian families) my mum insists that the family sit down for meals together, and EAT. Or I get concerned questions and interrogation and the like. I do try to skip dinner sometimes by saying that I don't feel well, or by pretending to be mad at someone (though it usually earns me a jolly sound scolding, not that I mind - too jaded to care now).

And... here's the big number: 39.5 kilos (or thereabouts - the only scale I have at home is sucky). I've already lost 2 kilos since June. I know I'm not fat, but I'm a perfectionist. And perfection and food happen to be mutually exclusive, no? Besides, I want some control. Control over me. As I mentioned I come from a traditional Asian family, and it's pretty restrictive. Since I don't have choice over what I wear, or do, or whatever, I might as well have a choice over what I eat. Prove them wrong. Remember, it's all about perfection.

Love, Lindariel